Ugh, drama please stop.....is that too much to ask? Oct. 24, 2011

Yup, is it???

Well in this edition of the weekly report of Kev....err...I mean Elder Wildes crazy adventures.....Elder Wilde is officially sick of having so much drama happening.

We again didnt have any baptisms this week which is dissapointing me because I love those investigators but I am about to make the decision to stop teaching them. Its quite sad really. But Ive been feeling super inadequate of being a senior companion.

Speaking of companions, I think you can start calling me the Killer. This is because I do believe that my companion is probably gonna go home this week, and this time because of other issues before his mission.

I HATE DRAMA!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!!!!!!

All I wanna do is teach and baptize, is that too much to ask????

On the good news, a few weeks ago I had an epiphany (yes, that is one my favorite words). I do feel comfortable speaking spanish. I can communicate, understand, and joke around in spanish. So yes, I am feeling proud of myself in that regard.

NOW, back to the drama, I felt soooo alone this week, because my companion was not talking to me, not supporting me, and I was basically dragging him around all day every day. Now today he finally opened up as to why he was like that, and yeah, hes probably going home.

Good news, I love the weather right now, not hot, not cold, just right.......ahhhh.......

But yeah, this week, I really gotta focus in on finding new investigators. I dont know why, but I am still nervous of contacting new people. Im getting better, but its still hard.

But dang its tough being a senior companion, especially when you have soooo much to learn.

Oh yeah, I got sick last week, Im still a little sick (spanish word of the day, todavia, means yet, or still). I woke up on friday and I could barely talk, and my throat was killing me. I do feel like the Lord blessed me there because the doctor said I needed to take a penicillin injection and other pills and rest for 2 days. But I felt a ton better on saturday and I worked. And I didnt do the penicillin injection because that wouldve been a shot where I dont like it....

Oh, and even more drama, my district leader is having issues as well, which is really sad, because he is a great missionary, but I wont go into detail.

OH, and today, my tailbone is hurting. I am worried about that because my son went home because of back issues.

But Im really hoping that all of this drama will stop and I can get back to teaching and baptizing.

So, thats my schpeal for this week, Ill be on for another 20 minutes,

Love you all,

Elder Kevin Ammon Wilde

Possibly the 2 most stressful weeks of my life! October 17, 2011

The title says it all.

My son died in childbirth(went home) because of issues in his spine, and went home on wednesday. I still felt like such a failure.

I got another mexican companion that came into the field at the same time as me. I am still senior companion. It was very clear to me (and he told me later) that he did not get along well at ALL with his trainer, because he hasnt learned much. Which makes things super stressful on me again because I have been doing everything, teaching, finding. I have to force him to participate. I just didnt think I was ready for this just yet. And that stress culminated on sunday when nobobdy come to church. Now there was a big storm and it has rained a TON in the last few days, but it was still bad. So yeah, I was depressed yesterday. Another elder, elder franco (good friend of mine) saw that, took me aside, and chewed me out for being depressed. SO, now I feel better, Im refocusing and this is gonna be a better week. We have 2 baptisms scheduled for this week, but probably 1 will actually happen. Im so worried about that because she´s still very nervous about baptism (because she´s 18 and worried about what will happen after baptism).

 

So yeah, mission life continues, oh, another part of the stress come because at transfers, we divided the areas of my ward to bring in 2 new elders. And with that, I didnt know half of my area. I lost half of my investigators to the other elders. And they told me that they were about to leave my best investigator, which leads me to believe that she doesnt trust them. SO yeah.

 

Oh, I forgot to tell you all that I learned a new word at general conference, "tweetear", "to tweet", hahahhaha. Sorry, that just makes me laugh.

 

I do very much enjoy going to costco, its like a mini trip to the states, because it is EXACTLY the same. Im going there this afternoon. 

 

I never really realized how much of a big deal blonde hair and blue eyes is until I came here. I mean seriously, it is a BIG DEAL. I get soooo many looks from people (especially women). Even more so than other americans, because right now, I am pretty dang blonde. Example, in a lesson a few weeks ago, I was explaining what would happen in the ressurection, and giving the example that I wear contacts, but in the resurrection, I wont have to because my eyes "will be perfect". And one of the women there said "ya son" meaning, "they already are". Yesterday, a member drove us to their house to eat, and I sat in the middle and there was a little girl sitting in the back. And 2 minutes into the trip, she starts stroking my hair....and did that until we got there.......that was awkward....

Yeah and Ive gotten a ton of comments about my hair and my eyes. As I said, its a big deal. SO, if after my mission I have troubles finding a girl, I know where to go ;)

 

But yeah, so these last few weeks have been rough, but its gonna get better,

Love you all!!!!!

Elder Kevin Ammon Wilde

A New Epic has Begun October 10, 2011

Well, as you all know I am training, but Im not too sure it will be for a long time. Actually, I could be getting a new comp this week. For a lot of reasons, first of all, he misses his family SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, second, Im pretty sure he came out here because of pressure from family and friends, thirdly, hes having some major issues with his back. He and I are gonna meet with President Salinas tomorrow to see what we should do because it hurts him a lot to walk all day, and as you know, we do that all day every day.

 

But he is a good person, humble, and funloving. If he can resolve his back problems here in the mission, I do believe he can be a good missionary.

 

This was a very wierd week, and I felt extremely inadequate. And it was very trying as well. We divided the areas and recieved a new companionship in the ward. And as such, I lost half my investigators and half of my area I dont know. It was even more trying when I heard that the new elders want to drop my best investigator. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, I lost all of my confidence in them, I fear they are gonna lose all of my other investigators. GAH!!!!!!

 

But I forgot to describe conference. IT WAS SO WIERD IN SPANISH. But nonetheless, awesome. But it was clear in one of the talks, the translator was very nervous because he finished the talk a full minute before the actual speaker! I laughed. But the jokes of the speakers just arent the same in spanish.

 

But we didnt have too many investigators as sacrament meeting. Our next baptisms are next week. But I'm quite a bit worried. I really hope I can be guided by the Spirit and help people, but I do believe Im going through a trial of faith.

 

Ugh, I always have things to write in my email but then I forget  them when Im at the cibers!!!!!!

 

Oh just throwing this out there, Heidi, you look soooooo different!!!!!!!

 

Nathan, are you married yet?

 

Funny fact about Mexico for the week, you wanna sell something? Buy a reverse tricycle and make noise.

 

But, all is well,

 

Love you all,

Elder Kevin Wilde

 

I'm a Father! - October 5th 2011

Yup its true, im officially a dad, Im training a noob.

His name is Elder Luna, a native from the state of Puebla.

And that is why I did not write yesterday. I was in merida getting my son. Im super excited and nervous at the same time.

So Im now fatherless. Yeah, he died in his last week but really I can't blame him. He was a great missionary and now I gotta pass that on to my son.

Im grateful that my son isnt a prideful elder like Ive heard of some Mexican elders. Hes really humble and ready to learn. I just hope I can teach him.

I really have no idea how I got so much trust from presidente salinas. Im one of 2 elders from my generation thats training this transfer.

SOOOOOOOO.....

It does look like we´ll have 2 baptisms next week so thats good. But Im just not sure Im ready to be a senior companion, much less a trainer. So I´ll need stregnth and more faith.

I didnt realize until now how little new missionaries now, and in turn,how little I know, but I must press forward. The spirit is what does it all.

But wow, I just cant believe it.

Im about to teach on my own basically.....wow......

This is when I gotta be a missionary, I gotta be good now, pray for me.

Im glad the fam is doing well, and SOOOOO glad that Michelle and the baby are safe.

I hope nothing is terribly wrong with carsey, I love that kid....

Fact about Mexico for the week: Theres more spanglish here than you would think. The words "look" and "ride" exist here, oh and today I encountered a begging drunk when we were studying at the chapel....that was interesting....

Glad all is well!!!

Love,

Elder Kevin Wilde

Ugh, drama please stop.....is that too much to ask?

Yup, is it???

Well in this edition of the weekly report of Kev....err...I mean Elder Wildes crazy adventures.....Elder Wilde is officially sick of having so much drama happening.

We again didnt have any baptisms this week which is dissapointing me because I love those investigators but I am about to make the decision to stop teaching them. Its quite sad really. But Ive been feeling super inadequate of being a senior companion.

Speaking of companions, I think you can start calling me the Killer. This is because I do believe that my companion is probably gonna go home this week, and this time because of other issues before his mission.

I HATE DRAMA!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!!!!!!

All I wanna do is teach and baptize, is that too much to ask????

On the good news, a few weeks ago I had an epiphany (yes, that is one my favorite words). I do feel comfortable speaking spanish. I can communicate, understand, and joke around in spanish. So yes, I am feeling proud of myself in that regard.

NOW, back to the drama, I felt soooo alone this week, because my companion was not talking to me, not supporting me, and I was basically dragging him around all day every day. Now today he finally opened up as to why he was like that, and yeah, hes probably going home.

Good news, I love the weather right now, not hot, not cold, just right.......ahhhh.......

But yeah, this week, I really gotta focus in on finding new investigators. I dont know why, but I am still nervous of contacting new people. Im getting better, but its still hard.

But dang its tough being a senior companion, especially when you have soooo much to learn.

Oh yeah, I got sick last week, Im still a little sick (spanish word of the day, todavia, means yet, or still). I woke up on friday and I could barely talk, and my throat was killing me. I do feel like the Lord blessed me there because the doctor said I needed to take a penicillin injection and other pills and rest for 2 days. But I felt a ton better on saturday and I worked. And I didnt do the penicillin injection because that wouldve been a shot where I dont like it....

Oh, and even more drama, my district leader is having issues as well, which is really sad, because he is a great missionary, but I wont go into detail.

OH, and today, my tailbone is hurting. I am worried about that because my son went home because of back issues.

But Im really hoping that all of this drama will stop and I can get back to teaching and baptizing.

So, thats my schpeal for this week.

Love you all,

Elder Kevin Ammon Wilde

Editor's note: This is the most current of Elder Wilde's emails. I'm afraid I neglected to post for a few weeks. I will endeavor to catch up. My apologies