Possibly the 2 most stressful weeks of my life! October 17, 2011

The title says it all.

My son died in childbirth(went home) because of issues in his spine, and went home on wednesday. I still felt like such a failure.

I got another mexican companion that came into the field at the same time as me. I am still senior companion. It was very clear to me (and he told me later) that he did not get along well at ALL with his trainer, because he hasnt learned much. Which makes things super stressful on me again because I have been doing everything, teaching, finding. I have to force him to participate. I just didnt think I was ready for this just yet. And that stress culminated on sunday when nobobdy come to church. Now there was a big storm and it has rained a TON in the last few days, but it was still bad. So yeah, I was depressed yesterday. Another elder, elder franco (good friend of mine) saw that, took me aside, and chewed me out for being depressed. SO, now I feel better, Im refocusing and this is gonna be a better week. We have 2 baptisms scheduled for this week, but probably 1 will actually happen. Im so worried about that because she´s still very nervous about baptism (because she´s 18 and worried about what will happen after baptism).

 

So yeah, mission life continues, oh, another part of the stress come because at transfers, we divided the areas of my ward to bring in 2 new elders. And with that, I didnt know half of my area. I lost half of my investigators to the other elders. And they told me that they were about to leave my best investigator, which leads me to believe that she doesnt trust them. SO yeah.

 

Oh, I forgot to tell you all that I learned a new word at general conference, "tweetear", "to tweet", hahahhaha. Sorry, that just makes me laugh.

 

I do very much enjoy going to costco, its like a mini trip to the states, because it is EXACTLY the same. Im going there this afternoon. 

 

I never really realized how much of a big deal blonde hair and blue eyes is until I came here. I mean seriously, it is a BIG DEAL. I get soooo many looks from people (especially women). Even more so than other americans, because right now, I am pretty dang blonde. Example, in a lesson a few weeks ago, I was explaining what would happen in the ressurection, and giving the example that I wear contacts, but in the resurrection, I wont have to because my eyes "will be perfect". And one of the women there said "ya son" meaning, "they already are". Yesterday, a member drove us to their house to eat, and I sat in the middle and there was a little girl sitting in the back. And 2 minutes into the trip, she starts stroking my hair....and did that until we got there.......that was awkward....

Yeah and Ive gotten a ton of comments about my hair and my eyes. As I said, its a big deal. SO, if after my mission I have troubles finding a girl, I know where to go ;)

 

But yeah, so these last few weeks have been rough, but its gonna get better,

Love you all!!!!!

Elder Kevin Ammon Wilde